Isn't it funny. Hearing your own voice I mean. There's another little voice in your head that insists it's not really your voice. "Look, we both know that can't possibly be our voice, don't we. It's so bad. Surely our voice is velvety and warming like a big mug of hot chocolate?"
So that's how it began when I started making videos for youtube. I mean quite literally that I could not hear my own voice without cringing and hearing my inner voice deny all knowledge of this imposter voice coming out of the speakers.
And now? Strangely I've got used to it really quickly. My mind accepts the speaker-voice, not as an imposter but maybe more like an alternate version of itself. It's a bit like having an inner voice and an outer voice, both with totally different timbre's and so on. I still find it weird that I'm not actually put off by it anymore, somehow I've been so used to being put off that it seems weird to accept anymore.
Still, it's a good thing. All my voices are in harmony for the first time ever and the world is a slightly less embarrassing place because of it.
